The "holidays"...not certain the true definition, but now, having my disease and being on the "older" side of 40, I am a certified "Holiday Curmudgeon". I DO enjoy being with those I love, HOWEVER the real meaning of CHRISTmas seems to have been diluted to a point, where we are no longer "celebrating Christs birth". I remember, as a child, going to church with my Nana, and others on that side of my family. We sang the Christmas hymns strong, heard the story of Jesus birth and REJOICED! I want...no I LONG to recapture that truest of holy feelings. I want to feel the real meaning of Christmas again.
I have no doubt, that God gave me my M.S. to "get me back on track". It finally DID, and opened my eyes, heart and mind to him again. It seems now, that my whole perception of life is on a different track. Some days the track has some wicked curves, but in all, the track is a good one to be on.
My Christmas wish to all, is that each person finds true life, love and happiness. Be it even in the smallest of nooks. Be it in the most improbable place. FIND it! Open your hearts and minds and you WILL find it!
Peace and Love to you ALL!!!!
Wednesday, December 8, 2010
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Just read this article and was LMAO! How SERIOUSLY we took ourselves in High School!!!! I know I did, but guess we were just "riding the hump" into become "little adults" so we were still in the "it is all about meeeee stage". Okay, I admit, I was one of the "preps" in high school, but also had a "rebel" side to me, which was probably good, as I didn't seem to QUITE fit in with the "preps"/preppies. I was never snobbish enough to be a true preppy, but man I loved those clothes....funny seeing them come back into style. Of course NOW they DO look "dorky" to me. Alas, I am inclined to "grasp", MY dorkiness, but wonder how many others out there my age EVER accepted their own dorkiness. Well hey at least I can laugh about it now, instead of running home to starch and iron my red Polo, and creased jeans, then and buff my penny-loafers (yes I had pennies in them)to slip my argyled covered feet into. Pssssst=I never gave up my penchant for argyles...LOL
Friday, September 3, 2010
Now that the weather is cooling a bit, I yearn for the rustling of leaves and purring of a stream in motion. I wish to be performing the 10 & 2 count rhythm of my fly rod, watching the hatches and trying to match them so I can hook a beautiful silky wet rainbow trout. Even if I don't keep, to enjoy for dinner, I still hold them long enough to feel their gentle power and enjoy the rich colors that the shining sun highlights, before releasing them back to their home.
Friday, August 6, 2010
Sitting at PC tonight, wondering what I can do to make myself happier. Not that I am in some sort of deep depression, but wondering (mostly what I can afford) what to do to find peace within myself. Is that not what we are all striving for? I know a few things I want to do, but they all require so much energy. It is not IMPOSSIBLE to overcome the energy issue, I just need to get off my ass and do something about it. My birthday is approaching and the one thing I am "giving myself" for my birthday, is a year of better health. "The HELL" with M.S. I know it will take some of my health, and there is not a damn thing I can do about that. BUT, I CAN change things in my life that will make my health better over all and will make me a better person for it. Some of my plans are to eat better. I will start out by keeping a diary of what I eat. I was in a "weight/eating" clinical trial and found that just by writing down everything I ate on a daily basis, that I changed some of my eating habits. The second thing is to join the YMCA. If I have to dig the money out of my investments I will (I hate doing that), but I have always, and still do love the water, and also plan to join the gym part of the YMCA as well. It wont be hard for me to work out, as I found out a couple of years ago that I eventually "CRAVE" going to the gym. The last thing I have in mind has to do with vanity, but hey, aren't all of us women vain to a degree? I am going to start using all of the very very nice brands of creams and anti-wrinkling agents that my Mother has got for me through the years. My family has longevity genes and because M.S. doesn't kill, I would like to look nice (for my own sense of pride) as I age. If anyone has other suggestions I am "open" to them, especially right now. This post is "all about me", but hey it IS my blog, huh? Kudos to all the ladies who take care of themselves for THEM!!! GO WOMEN, WE TRULY ARE THE BEAUTIFUL SPECIES!!!!